sunshine, family, roast beef and an ice cream sundae

Well what a weekend, well when I say weekend I have only had one day off, and then it is back to work tomorrow. But today has been fabulous all the same. I was debating on whether to sit and blog tonight as I am pretty tired and I have lots of things on my mind, but my little sister told me that I should and that I needed to, quote "write about how amazing I am". So I shall...... my sister..... she's okay...................ish !!!! Hehe!! Na my little sis is probably one of the most amazing people in the world, away with the fairies most of the time, but stunningly beautiful, very talented and extremely kind hearted.... and yup I love her. Spent most of today with her, and it was fab. The weather I must say was amazing. First spring like weather. I actually had to take off my coat walking to the train station, so that put a smile on my face. So we all went out for a roast, and god did I stuff my face. The roasties were out of this world, so crispy and then god was I bold............. an ice cream sundae.............. mmmmmmmmmm..... literally heavenly.... just a bowl full of dairy goodness. And there wasn't a drop of that left. My little sis also indulged.... and her face concurred with thoughts. So all round a spiffing day. Shame that ones like these always have to end. 
But as a day ends a new one begins and then maybe more exciting stuff will happen....... like....... more ice cream sundaes??? 


I am a little bit all over the place if I am honest. Hard to sort of focus my thoughts and write on here. I don't know why but my brain is a bit all over the place. Obviously there is the race coming up and the then the big move and I know that I am trying to look for a new job etc but there are just a few things that have been playing on my mind. Been feeling quite out of place, and there have been a couple of moments where crying felt like a great relief. Sounds silly doesn't it and I know that for lent I was going give up giving a shit, that is a lot easier said than done. I suppose I like to live my life by being very selfless, but every once and a while it kind of would be nice to have that returned, but in turn mostly I get walked on. Now don't get me wrong I am not saying woe is me and how fudging perfect I am, but I do like to give, I like making others smile and I have never and will never have a problem putting myself out to help some one else, but I don't know, maybe it's just getting older I can't emotionally cope, but being taken for granted does really fucking hurt, especially by those who really shouldn't. It does unfortunately make me a little harder and unwilling to open up to people. I have always found this hard, now for some people reading this their response to that was probably WTF !!!!!???? I know, I am outwardly spoken, confident etc etc but ask your self, do you actually know me ???? What is it I like? what makes me tick? What goes on on my head (i'm not surprised if you don't want to know this, it is rather scary) ?? but seriously I do like to keep my heart close to my chest, but when people come along that you believe you can open up to, be friends with, who you believe will do anything for you as you would for them, then suddenly they decide to squat over your head and just shit all over you. Bad times. Aside of that I have made a couple of really good friends over this way and dear god I will miss them greatly, and for that I am truly grateful, we don't need a thousand friends that is true, I just wish that the people who aren't fussed leave it at that rather than being twat heads. So yes this has been something on my mind for a while and I will admit has got me down a little, especially as in two weeks I moving miles away. Oh well I suppose it is in times like this that you find out who your true friends are. And I love you guys. Mwah.




Okay well on that note, my home made bread has nearly finished and I really need a whizz first. Thanks for reading guys. 


love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx