Another day, another dollar

And what a welcome back to work today was....... First day back after the new year, full clinic, piece of the optom's equipment gone and the computer crashes, just fyi this all happens within the first 5 minutes of opening. Oh and my favourite part was picking up the phone .... "good morning blah blah opticians, Betty speaking how can I help?"....... reply ............"well this is the story....." and oh was it a long and uninteresting story !!! Don't you just love it when you end up having to clear up every one else's fuck ups, the high light of my days!!!!


          And breathe !!!! 


On a more positive note, work is good, to get back into routine is always a welcome thing in my book, as I've said before, helps me feel more human. (don't say a word). The past few days have been a bit odd for me if I'm honest, I think it is my lack of routine, well the fact that the past couple of weeks have just been all over the place, you tend to fuck everything at xmas, your diet, your exercise plans, your sleeping pattern, fuck it, everything that is good for you we just gladly throw out the window. But hey that's what xmas is all about isn't it.......?...... oh and some dude I think...... After all sitting around on the sofa with our paper hat on surrounded by empty foil wrappers is one of our best guilty pleasures :)  I think waking up in 2012 has made me start to realise that there is so much stuff that I have got to organise. I think Dolly Parton has never played in my mind so much,  ".... my D.I.V.O.R.C.E...." honestly, how do they make it so easy to marry the fucka, but so hard to get rid of them ? You would have thought they would stand there and hand you a medal for finally realising it ! But noooooooooooo, instead its hours of going over why and mountains of paper work. Yes, worth it in the end but a huge pain in the ass to deal with and to be frank its a constant reminder of the hold they still have over you. You cant change your name back, not without making it even more complicated, and giving him the satisfaction that he is causing me stress is not something I am going to give into! So for now its just waiting for the over paid lawyers to get on and do their job. I seriously would like to think that if I worked some where where I'd lost my passion for it, I wouldn't make my clients pay for my lack of self fulfilment I would move on. But I will keep smiling, with every piece of paper I sign I will bathe in the knowledge that he lost the best thing that will possibly ever happen to him (not to blow me own horn or anything but you know how it goes), and I am now the happiest I have been in a long time, I can finally be me, and I've never felt so excepted for being me!!! Happy ? Yup ! Do I have my bad days ? Yup ! But being able to enjoy the good moments means having to ride the bad times. And can we all do this ? Fuck Yes ! 

Oh yes !!!!! 


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