Well sorry guys that I have not been blogging, last week was ........ well lets just call it a right off shall we.... very random week that needed lots to be done but by the end of the week seemed like very little was actually achieved at the end of it..... although work wise was pretty amazing. Hit most of our targets and the ones we didn't meet we weren't far off, so me was very happy indeed. Least I am not shitting myself for when the big boss man rings me !! So today being the sabbath day I have taken this opportunity to pretty much do nought!! Made a small trip to Asda, brought some treats, made some flap jacks which are chuffing delicious and am now sipping on a summer fruits kopparberg...... oh yeah baby................ bliss !! This rest was also needed as I completed my first 10 K run yesterday!! My little nike plus woman was so proud of me ! I literally am so happy with my insole, my foot has healed up amazing....... don't get me wrong its by no means perfect and I am going to continue to wear it but it felt so good, I hit my wall but got through it !! So I think that I am just about back on track for the Bath half, although speed is not going to be my friend I feel, so I am just going to stick with the distance training. Got to say this bastard cold is hard to run in, my hands freeze up, my nose continuously runs with snot, which by the end are mixed with my tears, and it's just impossible to take in a deep breath.............. Christ why am I actually doing this.............. sorry yes charity .... yes to help others............. god they better be grateful.... oh and for my own personal satisfaction.............. yawn (yeah right) !! Also I am apart of the runny run run ruberston challenge, run 100 K in 4 weeks. In this challenge is just me and one other, and I do not plan on getting silver I tell ya, bad foot or not I will not lose to a boy !!! That's it, no more discussion needed.
My week ahead is looking very busy. Tuesday is my day off and it is packed full of things to do, most exciting, I will be getting my new tattoo, least exciting seeing my divorce lawyer. A necessity I know but something that I wish I could just click my fingers and it be done. Don't get me wrong I really want to get a divorce but it's just knowing the process, going over old ground again, that is what I am not looking forward to. It was bad enough having to see him the other day, being polite and civil, god it makes me sick !!! What actually annoys me more is his coolness of "oh yes I'm fantastic, i've never been so happy in my life, I realise how much you held me back" ME !!???!!! I held him back??? bloody cheeky, well its a lot more than that but I'll hold my tongue, seriously though close to smacking the twat. Hard hour biting my tongue. I suppose I just shouldn't let it get to me but It's just the coolness of how little he seems to care of how much he hurt me. Maybe he was just hiding it but after 7 years with the bastard I don't think there is a bone in his body that actually gives two Shits about another human being. Harsh??? But so very very true. Yes I can hear you asking why in the world did I marry him then, well that my friends is a question I ask myself often and I suppose all I can say is I wanted to try and make it work, I hate giving up on anything and on that I was truly determined but I failed. And the lesson learnt is you can't change people, you can only change yourself. Please don't think I am saying I was perfect, I ain't but I know I tried because out of the both of us I am the one that got left with scars. So Tuesday I am looking forward to in the sense of getting closure, getting my freedom again, but to have to drag it all up again, with a stranger, not so enjoyable. Eyes on the prize though..... eyes on the prize.
Right well last night the other half and I started the epic adventure of watching the Lord of the Rings extended editions. Watched most of The fellowship of this ring last night but after 2 and a half hours I was starting to fade, so tonight the plan is, run, die, recover, eat, stare at the box ! Sounds like a plan to me.
Right wish me luck.
Love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
My week ahead is looking very busy. Tuesday is my day off and it is packed full of things to do, most exciting, I will be getting my new tattoo, least exciting seeing my divorce lawyer. A necessity I know but something that I wish I could just click my fingers and it be done. Don't get me wrong I really want to get a divorce but it's just knowing the process, going over old ground again, that is what I am not looking forward to. It was bad enough having to see him the other day, being polite and civil, god it makes me sick !!! What actually annoys me more is his coolness of "oh yes I'm fantastic, i've never been so happy in my life, I realise how much you held me back" ME !!???!!! I held him back??? bloody cheeky, well its a lot more than that but I'll hold my tongue, seriously though close to smacking the twat. Hard hour biting my tongue. I suppose I just shouldn't let it get to me but It's just the coolness of how little he seems to care of how much he hurt me. Maybe he was just hiding it but after 7 years with the bastard I don't think there is a bone in his body that actually gives two Shits about another human being. Harsh??? But so very very true. Yes I can hear you asking why in the world did I marry him then, well that my friends is a question I ask myself often and I suppose all I can say is I wanted to try and make it work, I hate giving up on anything and on that I was truly determined but I failed. And the lesson learnt is you can't change people, you can only change yourself. Please don't think I am saying I was perfect, I ain't but I know I tried because out of the both of us I am the one that got left with scars. So Tuesday I am looking forward to in the sense of getting closure, getting my freedom again, but to have to drag it all up again, with a stranger, not so enjoyable. Eyes on the prize though..... eyes on the prize.
Right well last night the other half and I started the epic adventure of watching the Lord of the Rings extended editions. Watched most of The fellowship of this ring last night but after 2 and a half hours I was starting to fade, so tonight the plan is, run, die, recover, eat, stare at the box ! Sounds like a plan to me.
Right wish me luck.
Love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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